Sordid Dalliance

My toes clip the sea

And my arms reach for the sky

My mind on you here.

And when a fire burns

Or a cold wind snaps, it bites 

I will long for you

On dark hollow nights

I restlessly toss and turn 

Alone, I need you

Then, after tears rain

Pain seeps in, you never come

I cry out for none

I ask for my love

But you not one before me

I drown in sorrow

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You kissed my hand twice

I remember to the day

You then kissed my face

We sat under a tree

And beneath the summer sun

In gold tinted haze

And I always laughed

For you a smile not enough

Left wrinkles behind

Smoking mild cigars

And telling secrets to you

Knowing what love was

It was never right

They said love is often not

And so we went forth 

I often feared loss

A grave consequence of love 

And you calmed my heart

Now not clandestine 

Delicate balance of souls

Pain in potential 

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I left with good-bye

As things end in an instant

And I just felt numb

Change was unruly

And so the pain came quick, hard

Excruciating

And I wept freely 

Saved by a bottle and pen

Nights writing to you

I whispered your name

And I cried for your return 

My hopes unanswered

Time dried many tears

Calendar pages flew away

You now, a dull throb